♥Sunday, December 04, 2005♥
Yes,Thursday had passed.My mind thinks clearer now.All falling in one piece.It wasn't a fairytale ending.The picture turned uglier.Outside me,was all full out with full force.Inside me,was hollow,empty and tired.It's as if I had taken 50 Alert pills,yet I am still feeling tired.But I couldn't sleep.Why?I wanna pour everything out.But I couldn't explain myself.I used to listen to soft music...To pour out my feelings,But, my background is playing R&B now.And I am still so full of feelings...Why?Didn't bother to change the music.I didn't mind anymore.It's calm and quiet inside me.Am I in control?I am deep in thoughts as the wind blew pass my face.I started asking questions,I shouldn't had.I thought I needed answers.I was wrong.What I needed wasn't answers...It was assurance.The answer was with me all along,I was unsure.I was blind.Another month had gone by...There's no time to stop.Tomorrow might really be 'The End.'Perhaps I am fearful.I wanna do everything I could.I even started planning my weeks.I want to be useful.I am hoping to prove and to make a change.As the picture grew clearer,part of my heart grew tired.Am i alright?I wasn't sure...
ends at 1:46 AM
with love ♥
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