♥♥ Dazzle me...

♥Monday, February 27, 2006♥

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♥Sunday, February 26, 2006♥

Another Saturday at home...
Was browsing through my cupboard ,when I took noticed for a few dresses hiding in a corner.
It had been years since,I had them on.
Out of curious,I tried them on.
One by one...

Those dresses used to be fitting,neverless...Praises would be heard.
They were once, my 'battle' dresses.
Standing in front of the mirror...I stood rooted .
*Trying to remember,how I once looked in them.*
I could feel the poor dress...gotten torn a part any minute.

It brought me to really realised how much weight I had gained through the years.
Without realizing ...

I want my figure back!

I was determined.
I had putted the dresses back in the dark corner.
Hoping that the next time,when I'll be trying them on...I would be able to see my old-self again.
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It took me quite a while ,staring at the toothbrush he used to use.
I was about to put it back,when I suddenly reached for the dustbin instead.
The toothbrush had been sitting there...untouched.
I didn't threw it away in the past,because I was hopeful that it's master would one day,
used it again...
Fairytale had ended.
I grew to walked through,starting a brand new chapter in my life.
I ain't that strong to carry so much 'weight' with me,and in order for me to continue,I had to drop some of them off.

Signing off,
What will be...will be,
Kojikwek.

ends at 2:56 PM

with love ♥

♥Saturday, February 25, 2006♥

Friday...is a great day for a night out,with no other but my wonderful Kakis!
(Jazz...Javis...Wendy...and me of course!)
As usual,went to 'BabyFace'.
We opened a bottle there,but the funny part is none of us drink!
We kept drinking the mixer(green tea) ...
The bottle could last a good 1 mth.*laughing*

BabyFace is something like one of those 'Canto disco',with life band playing from a certain time.
Yes...it's a typical 'Ah Beng' place.
But you be suprised that it is crowded almost everyday!
The crowd there is mostly the older age group.
People there really just want to drink...enjoy...and have fun!
Not those rowdy place ,where there would be alot of fights.
Neverless...
It wouldn't be fun without the company of my kakis...of course :p

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with love ♥

♥Friday, February 24, 2006♥

A late late supper with one of my old pal, Joe.
Mr Joe had been working in the police force for 12 years?
As I said...Time flies.

A long chitchat session, he reminded me alot about life...romance.

"What most important is just to be happy.Life goes on,being happy is what important most.
As times goes by,you will find yourself going to a more predictable lifestyle.You will enjoy life as what it should be.
The past,we always hopes for too much,then we got ourselves disappointed.
Less hopes = Less disappointments.
Learn to love yourself more.
Do things that you liked...You will find life more fruitful..."

It's true, that people do change with time.
Both of us had changed in some ways.
Along with the bums we met in life.

I do seems to agreed with what he said.
Life would be much easiler with more laughter then misery,isn't it?

Happiness beholds the key to life.

*Although sometimes...it's easiler said then to be done. :P

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with love ♥

♥Thursday, February 23, 2006♥

I might be visiting the doctors...
Nope.
I ain't sick.

I am worried that I am suffering from depression.

I cried myself to sleep last night.
I didn't want to.But tears kept coming out.
Really Really didn't want to.

I was under my blanket,having only my bolster next to me.
Curling like a little girl.
I hardly could open my eyes.
*puffy and swollen*

Crying wasn't a good habit to pick up.
But somehow,I seems to notice myself more in tears then in smiles.
And I really living in such a miserable life?

What had happened to me?

ends at 11:38 AM

with love ♥

♥Wednesday, February 22, 2006♥

Sometimes,I question life,and asked myself what I wanted in this life time?
Feeling rather messed up actually.
I seems to know what I wanted,and knew very well ,what had to be done,to archive it.
But I lacked of determination,always so half-hearted.

If I happened to die one day and asked myself ,what I had done that made myself useful,
Honestly...I can't think of any.

Maybe I just ain't mature enough to think.Or I just needed some vaild reasons to push me futher?I really don't know.

Went out for Movie and supper with Jay.(Not the previous jay that I once mentioned.)

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This Jay was introduced by Wei Jie, a year ago.But he left shortly as he was studying in Perth.
He came back for Chinese New Year and would be leaving this sunday.9 more months to go,before he finished his studies.
Meeting him today,was like a small farewell get together.(Even if it's only the 2 of us.)
Watched the 'Casanova.'

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It was quite funny though ...About a guy who could seduce any girls with his charm.And from this talent,he got himself into hot soup.And the last straw came when He met a girl,who fights her rights as a woman.He fell hopelessly in love....

The subject about 'Girls' pop out,at supper.
"When man cared too much,girls complained them as being too possessive...when they stop caring so much,girls complained ,that man cared no more."

You can never really guessed what the other party are thinking ,and at times...it's best not to know so much!Best remember...the truth always hurts.
Don't be too reliable on the other party...if you do,once he/she leaves you...you be devastated.

Mmm...
So much on relationship education.

Anyway,good luck with your studies, and really hoped to see you in 9 months time.
Take care!!!

Naz,(the sales person who worked directly opposite of my shop.)would be resigning by the end of this month.Although I wasn't that really liked him.But seeing him leave made me felt a little sad.I was so used to seeing him for 2 good years.He was someone who joked and we play pranks on each other.
Perhaps this is human nature.We won't know what we long to see/wanted ,until we losted it.
Then we starts to treasure them.
(But please don't get me wrong.I not interested in him or what so ever.
Just a friend misses the company of another friend.)
Would like to bid him fare well too...

I would like to update what I didn't mention yesterday.

My handphone was stolen and I had no choice to buy another new phone.
Lg p7200.
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It burned a hole in my pocket,at a good price of $668.
(So for those who read this blog and had my number,please give me a ring,or sent me your number to update my phone book.Thankyou.)

I have to go and take my beauty sleep now.
My mom started to become very worried after I told her,I intended to visit the doctors to get some help in sleep...(sleeping pills.)She strongly rejects ,fearing that I would later, be dependence on the medicine.

To make her stopped worried,I had to convice her I would try my best to sleep.
That's all for now...
I shall update again.

Signing off,
counting sheeps ,
Koji Kwek.

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with love ♥

♥Tuesday, February 21, 2006♥

Having been blogging for quite sometime.

A brand new year had arrived.

Year 2006.

Another year,another age...

For the beginning of these 2 months ,I spent it mostly at home.
Singapore is so small,there are limits of what you can do.
There were days ,when there's nothing that I felt like doing,and just laze around at home.

I seems to be quite confused.
but yet,wasn't sure ,what's on my mind.

I picked up a bad habit though,of not being able to sleep at night.
Only until early morning.
I just couldn't sleep!

Take a guess ...
What I am doing now?
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I am eating McDonald's as I am typing these, at 7 am in the morning!
Couldn't sleep and hungry.
Best thing that had happened in Singapore.
They made McDonald's delievery 24 hours!
Let's not talk about the 'fats' part. :p

Well...
Jazz had been one of my faithful clubbing kakis.
I am losing most of my kakis after they were pronounced attached.
Thankfully,I was introduced to 2 more wonderful ladies,Wendy and Javis...
Definitely adding to my list.

After much thoughts,
I had come to a conclusion,I concede defeat with romance.
What will be...will be.
I am leaving the whole relationships stuffs for the time being,and just let faith do it's magic.
It's too tired and too painful to be clinging on .
For now,all I can and want to do is to somehow enjoy my singlehood.
That's one of my new year revolutions.

I had got my frige cut.(Wasn't what I intended.)It all happened because of me and my itchy fingers.

My frige was getting long,so I acted smart by triming it,by myself.

It ended up with many holes, I had no choice but to go to the hairdresser and cut it SHORT!

Please don't doubth my short...When I said Short...I meant SHORT!!!

I only had left with 4 cm of frige!!!And did I forget to mention full frige?I got so upset with it,I really cried out.I looked so horrible! Leaving me with no choice,I had to pin everything up to the side ,using tons of hairspray to make it stay.

"I would never try to cut my hair ever again! " That was the first vows I made this year.

The first club that I went this year,would be MOS.(Ministry of sound.)M.o.s is made up of many different rooms.Different styles of music and deco in each different rooms.Great for club-hoppers!Everything you would be looking for, falls under one roof.

Last but not least,this is the first blog skin that I made this year...

Hoping that everything would go well this year.Feeling down,for the time-being.Praying that lady -luck would smile at me soon...and that's my first wish of the year. :)

Good luck...Good year...

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with love ♥