♥Saturday, July 09, 2005♥
Actually these few days after the 'kiong's incident.'I really wonder if he was out?I would always wondered what would my reaction be,when I saw him.It has been a round a year,Some memories still runs deep in me.I could say I had gotten over him.we can never be a couple again.It's just memories of him , craved in my heart ,he was still after all...the guy,I loved most...I was so pathetic ,I would record conversations I had with him.Played it,to make myself sleep,like a lullabye...Imagine,he was just next to me.His letters hid Under my pillows,reading them again and again before I fall asleep...The day i gotten over him,was the day,I erased all my recordings.Although I do have dreams for him...I do consider that as a nightmare.This song,is our 'thing'.Bring back alot of memories...Picture this...It was new year eve,everyone celebrating...Or leng brought me out,not wanting me to be at home.I cried sitting in their car,when this song played in the radio.Everyone like...'Blurred'!!!!I wasn't the crying type in the past.And i cried in the car ...on my way to club...In one of the clubs ,I cried from thinking of him.How sad can it be?But it wasn't the ending,They wanted to sent me home after makan.But I refused.I went to Queenstown remand.(outside there's a bus stop)Sat there alone.Cause I knew he was inside.Just sitting there...*So near yet so far*To know he is actually there...So near to me.To know at least My new year,he was there...*Stupid right?*To think of it,He won't even know.Anyway,I be Meeting Eugene later,Have to go get prepare liao.I still have no ideal how I am going to celebrate my birthday.But definately,no clubbing for me.Any ideals?Promise to meet Siao hei for dinner tommorrow...Early birthday dinner.I had to go now...Signing off,A little excited me,Koji kwek...
ends at 5:23 PM
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