Boring was the word to decride my day... Don't really have the mood to do anything.I was confused. I started asking around for advised. Doubthing and pushing blames all to myself to bare. I wanted to find an excuse. There's so many times,I wanted to take my mobile,and call him... But I didn't. I knew I couldn't. Things would only be going in circles,I be back in this state again if I continued. *useless me* Girls are always sensitive in some ways or the other. We,girls often need securities and assurance from our love ones. Maybe he knew my weakness too well. Or maybe he is better off living without me and I would only be a pest if I had held on. I am not going to say any angry words. I ain't angry with him.And if there's a feeling i felt for him,that would only be hurt. Enough said... Recieved a call from ...Eric. For those who had no ideal who this guy is, He was a guy who doted me the most!!! We chatted on the phone, talking about our problems, (I told him i had relationship problems.)
Then we chatted about our past. Summary... We met each other in the wrong time. I was 17 and he was 21 then... I wasn't ready to settle down and he was so so devoted to me. Come on...I am 17 then. How serious I could be?At the time,all I thought was fun... He gave me his 100%. And I misused it. I broke his heart. And from that day onwards,he had never treated anyone like how he treated me. He had changed so much... Maybe thats why, Now i have my karma. What goes round comes round...What goes up must come down... Both of us agreed that we had aged . And I am so different from my past. He would at times,Click on my friendster account, looking at my photos and wonder... If we had be together,we would be married by now. (He was a hot favourite to my mom.) Giving me advised on my problems. It came to a point,when we both were wondering if we could ever be together again... It's a question mark. Let's just leave it as a question mark for now. I couldn't even think straight... I didn't know if i am in the right state to work tomorrow. I wanted to keep myself busy. But yet I wanted to lock myself in the room and just be alone. *Contridicting me*
Eric's younger brother and Eric himself...
ends at 4:37 AMwith love ♥
About me ♥
" I love my crazy ,
Tragic,
sometimes,almost Magic,
Beautiful...Life."
Name:Koji kwek
Birthday:13 july
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Ooh...how i wish ♥
A Chanel Bag
A Nintendo Wii
To Get my lasik done.
To have an operation on my teeth.
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