♥♥ Dazzle me...

♥Friday, July 15, 2005♥

Early morning woken up by my parent's quarrel.
About money again!!!

I was laughing yet angry.
Laughing at what my dad says,laughing at how my mom argues.
Angry at the words he uses,Angry at her for helping him.

A little more about me and my family.

I wasn't born in a silver spoon.
My character and temper follows my dad...
I was actually closer to my dad when I was much younger.
But I became Naughty,and turned the whole house up side down!

I had a bad habit in the past.I would often cut myself after every quarrels.
Just to 'release' my temper and remembering them.
Leaving scars on my left hand...

Everyone in my family is those'study types'.
And i am the odd one out.

Going through all those 'downs' in my life, i could say...I became a better person.

But my dad still blames me though , as he actually laid high hopes on me.
And i crashed them one after the other.
He do still love me...
(no matter how,he can't change the facts that i'm still his daugther.)
'Blood is always thicker then water.'
Just that He didn't want to show it out.

But trust me,when mishaps happen in our family,we would come out as team.
' Protective over each other.'

Guess,every family will have problems.
Mine is just one of them.
My dad had a bad habit.
He loves gambling.
And my mom loves him...

9 years of courtship and 23 years of marriage.
They do have little actions at times,
showing their love for each other.
Which makes them ...loving.

Remember there's this time, a man (a boss) from a few shops next to ours.
Came over and actually scolded my mom.
The next day,My dad nearly had a fight with him.
That coward ran away.
If that guy ever touches my dad.
I will skin him alive.
'Try me'.

I'm a person ,who ...
anything could happen to me...but not to my love ones.
I often told my mom,i hoped i would die first before her.
It would be too painful to see her leave.

Seeing them quarrel about money issue,
I didn't want to be like them.
' Money cannot buy everything...but without money you are nothing.'

The whole business of ours,
all the money earned goes to the family.
And market had been bad...but I guess we are the lucky ones.
Who could still stand firm as a small business scale.

I had been relaxing for too long.
I am dead broke and I had bills to pay.
I better buck up.

ends at 11:18 AM

with love ♥