Chatted with Mark on msn today. He sounds so different from the past. The thought of him... made me miss the 'old Mark'... "Why can't you understand that i am scared? After Kiong,i really REALLY am scare. All these while in my life,i putted up a strong front , was to protect myself from getting hurt. But you knew i was weak. You knew... I did all the stupid stuffs was to show you that i can be fine. Even without you. But in me,it wasn't so. I was acting... I wasn't alright.I wasn't...
In the end, I made myself so tired from acting stuffs... I made you misunderstood. I'm am not being myself. And instead of protecting myself, I brought in some more pain... When i found out, I fell in love with you." The more i knew my feelings for you were real, The more i tried to hide . In love,I am a coward. I wasn't strong enough... I am lost. I needed help,i needed someone to pull me up. But when you held on to my hand, You suddenly,let go... Is it too late? But i am down again... This time round, I 'm learning...and i will pull myself up. I want to stop acting... I can't go on like this. I promised myself,and i will... Have faith in me.
ends at 1:30 AMwith love ♥
About me ♥
" I love my crazy ,
Tragic,
sometimes,almost Magic,
Beautiful...Life."
Name:Koji kwek
Birthday:13 july
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Ooh...how i wish ♥
A Chanel Bag
A Nintendo Wii
To Get my lasik done.
To have an operation on my teeth.
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with love ♥
