♥♥ Dazzle me...

♥Monday, May 23, 2005♥

Just came back from supper after clubbing at Phuture.

Today ain't my happy day.

Firstly,
When I told Mark that i decided to join the contest,(it's a designers' contest.)
He told me that i was just dreaming and beening unrealistic.
He kept saying about me failing,saying that i am childish to think this way.*Piss off*
What the Fuck...
I had never seen a boyfriend like him.
Every guy that i asked ,told me that no matter win or lose,
They will still support their girlfriend.
You never try you never know...
And yet this jerk...

But...again...i forgive him .
He got his friend to pick me up at my place,to fetch me to Phuture.
In the car,we were chitchatting when ,his friend mention that they would be going to ktv later ...
And it's those ktv with hostess!!!
I mean i don't have ill thoughts of those hostess,
but it's just that the ktv that they are going happen to be ,One of those 'most happening'
places.
And I knew the lady boss there.I knew what they were like.
Eventually,i disagreed for him to go.
We Argued.
and he hang up my call.
I kept calling ...
and he kept hanging up...

"I will never bring you out with my friend ever again."
"Tonight you go your own home sleep.I not meeting you."
These were the message he sent to me.

I get so piss off...
I mean ,is it wrong to stop her boyfriend to go to such places?
Was it wrong?

If he is nothing to me,i wouldn't had bothered.
But the facts that he meant alot to me.
I bothered...
And he blames me for not allowing him to go.
What the fuck...
He just wanted fucking 'face' ,'pride' in front of his friends...

It really spoil my clubbing mood.
I was so pissed.
It wasn't even my fault.
He can never furfill his promise of showing love,being the "old Mark".
To him,this relationship meant nothing any more.
He held on just for the sake of holding on.
What Nicholas said were true.

I wanted to cry.
Trying my best to fight back my tears.
I drank ...
It's too painful...

'If singlehood is happy ,then having someone by your side should only be happier.'

What for having another person, yet so miserable.

I decided.
I given up.
It's Over.This time i meant it .It's over!!!
I don't need a guy like him.
Yes,i do felt hurt.But i can't drag this on.
He wasn't the one i am looking for.
And he ain't gotten be the one.

Again...I deleted all his numbers...and everything that had to do with him.
This time round ,i had no regrets.Cause i knew i had loved him whole heartly and i tried my best.
It's him who don't treasure me this time round.
He took my love to his advantage.
Banned out from my life.
He is goodbye...

ends at 4:41 AM

with love ♥