♥♥ Dazzle me...

♥Friday, November 04, 2005♥

I was so close to tears ,when I read 'his' letter to me.
Yes,He had came out a few days ago.

He made drawings of how we were in the past.
How he spent his time in there.
How he thought I treated him.

He was pretty much in depression.
His father who was the closest to him had passed away.
No one had visited him since the day he was in there.
And the only time he had the chance to come out,was to go to his dad's funeral.
*Tears*

Somehow I felt his pain.
But there was nothing I could do.
I wanted so much to write to him.
telling him to hold on strong...telling him not to let his dad down .

"If you had ever love your dad.
Please turn over a new leaf.
No one could help you,unless you want to.
Your dad would had hoped for you to led a much better life."

I knew there won't be any ending if I kept writing...and he kept answering.
To the Past,there's too much to say and too much to explain.
So much things had happened that it was too much for the relationship to bare.

And I guess it's faithed to the day I met him.
To what it became today.

I couldn't hate him.
Why we were an item before and till today,why we parted.
Baring only one reason.
'we were too in love with each other.'

Too much stress...Too much pain...Too much pressure....

Unknowingly....We did it all in a wrong way.
Draining the relationship.
Till today.
We couldn't forget what had happened.
And there's no turning back in time.

I had changed so much after the relationship ,I had with him.
He was after all the guy I loved the most.
Being together would only cause more misery .
I wasn't in for that.
Loving a person =letting the person to be happy.
I am contented that we once had each other .

I really do hope for him to be able to walk through all these bad moments soon...

ends at 11:39 PM

with love ♥