♥Wednesday, August 31, 2005♥
Finally!!! Met up with my buddy!It's been quite some time since I last met her.She had been so "Busy".Still the same...cute and lovble. :p(See I say you until so good...)Went clubbing at MoMo.Jazz came along to join us later.We were dancing in the dance floor ,when a guy dancing besides us,turned and befriended me.From his pocket,He took out his handphone.Pass his handphone to me.(He wanted my number la.)Then....Suddenly...."OUCH!!!"He accidentally threw his finished cigarette right on my toes!!!"Burning sensation"*****I didn't scream for help.I still could calming walked away.(Wanted to remain my 'beautiful' image la.)I was IN PAIN!!!!In my heart...I was screaming for HELP!!!My poor toes.
Neverless...It didn't stop(The dancing queen )in me from having a good time.Adrian and Ah Nei brought us for supper and fetched us home after that.I knew Adrian when I was 14!Time really flies.It has been so many years back.(Makes me feel do old...)I gave myself a new nick name:"Lao Chai"Nice seeing him again.Brought back lots of my teenage memories.*Sign....*How I wish I could turn back time...
ends at 5:44 AM
with love ♥
♥Tuesday, August 30, 2005♥
Meet up with Min Lee ...We arranged a date for Jazz,as One of Min Lee's friend kind of interested in her.I finally found a guy who needed longer time to prepare then me.We actually intended to watch a movie ,but had to cancel it, because he was late!We ended up for coffee at 'Mr Beans'.Our coffee session didn't last too long as both of us,(Jazz and me) were tired.Nice meeting up with them though.Got to Know Min Lee more...A very capable guy indeed.
ends at 11:26 AMwith love ♥
♥Monday, August 29, 2005♥
KOJI
K | is for Keen O is for Odd
J | is for Joyous
I | is for Important
ends at 11:16 AMwith love ♥
♥Sunday, August 28, 2005♥
Promised Min Lee that I would go clubbing with him yesterday.
(We knew each other at MoMo yesterday.)
I asked Jazz along with me.
We were walking from one table to another.
*Majiam very busy.*
There's this girl,I would like to introduce.
Her name is Eunice.
Many times people would mistaken for who we are.
There are also alot of people asking if we were sisters.
Once OrLeng befriend with her because she looks like me!!!
What sia?
But we don't look really alike in this pic.
(Our smiles are so different...)
Saw my ex schoolmates.
My junior.
I saw Mark there too.
"Honestly,I had a mixture of feelings.Hafe of me wanted to catch glimpses of him.
I was curious to find out if the girl that he liked is that pretty as what he proclaimed.
Another half of me,reminded myself. 'Let it be...' It's overs and I am through with him."
Seeing him really brought back memories.
Till now,I always had sweet memories of him,
I often had to read my pervious posts to remind myself how bad he once treated me.
But,I couldn't hate him.
I couldn't tell if it's his fault that he treated me this way,or was I the one that made him treated me this way?
Any way...It's over.
Somethings are just not meant to be.
Like me and OrLeng.
We could never be lovers,but we are good buddies.
We would joked ,danced ,stood by each other ...lending listening ears and shoulders ...
But the end of the day.We draw a line.
We just wanted to enjoy each other company ,enjoying ourselves.
Being happy was what life suppose to mean isn't it?
Life still goes on...
I met a guy there...who had a road name..."Clement."
*Laughing*
I didn't know why his parents gave him this name.
But it's kind of catchy...Left a deep impression.
Min Lee was nice enough to fetch me home after that.
Not a bad night out after all...
Clubbed two days in a row.*Damn tired...*
ends at 6:09 AMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, August 27, 2005♥
This post is dedicated to Brendan Chua.
"Thank you", for being there for me;
"Thank you", for letting me scold you:'Fuck you!'
"Thank you", for your effort...
"Thank you", for your heart;
"Thank you" , for baking the cake just for me;
(Even though it's not pink.)
*Smiles*
"Thank you "for carving the name on the cake...
(Even when you don't know how to write the name with cream.)
A big :" Thank you "
*Mucks*
ends at 6:03 PMwith love ♥
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Went MoMo with Jazz and Vivian.
MoMo was crowded as usual.
Both of them went up to the podium to dance.
I *being coward* didn't dare to.
We were enjoying ourselves when a sicking 'Ang Mo' came up to the podium.
(The podium was SO packed.)
He kept forcing his way up.
He nearly made both of my girlfriends fell down.
We would be very forgiving if ,he had apologize.
But he didn't....
My girlfriends danced in a way,that they actually pushed the guy off the podium.
He was furious.
He stood there looking at my girlfriends.
(with those 'whats wrong with you' sight.)
I didn't care less,I just danced.
Then he danced.
Knocking and pushing me.
I stopped....
I turned....
Face to face with the Ang Mo ,then I push...
Stared right into his eyes.
'I nearly wanted to hit him.'
My girlfriends grabbed me.
I pulled his shirt.I shouted at him.
(What the hell !)
He don't even understand a single word I said.
One of his friends (a girl) came over,apologized and quickly pulled them away.
Ok i admit.
My actions was so AH LIAN.
I lost myself,dueing that point of time.
shouldn't had behaved that way.
Now I would be called 'Koji the tigeress..'
ends at 6:47 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, August 26, 2005♥
Promised Ben that I would meet up with him.
And so I did.
With my specs on.
We watched 'Marched of the Penguins.'
It's actually a movie worth watching.
It took a year plus,living in -30c just to make this movie possible.
Looking at the adorable Penguins,
you will also realise,how tough they had to go through just to make lifes.
After the movie,Ben brought me to a park with was actually enclosed.
We had to climbed the fences to get in.
I was so afraid of being bitten by any insects.So we left shortly after.
"Ben ,You will be leaving this sunday.
Hope to see you in a month time after your trip.
Do take good care .
*wave*
Have fun...Bye..."
ends at 3:18 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, August 25, 2005♥
10 signs of death nearing:
1--->When Hands and legs became swollen.(Bitten by insects)
2--->When eyes were having infection due to the eyes extension.
3--->When wearing contacts lenses will make your eyes blind.
4--->When hands and legs were itchy and won't be able to scratch.
(The more you scratch,the more swollen it become and afraid of having scars.)
5--->When you had nice eye lashes and can't seems to show it and had to hide it behind your specs.
6--->When your eyelashes is made so long that it's started poking your specs.
7--->When you had to wear your specs like Liang Po Po..."hu...hu...hu..."
8--->When your long lost buddy,finally off from her bf. Asked you to go MoMo...
9--->When looking at the tv or the screen of your computer was too painful for your eyes.
10--->When you realise you have a 'thai boxer' hands...
*Waving hands*
And lucky me.
I had all of the above.
I did the eye extension and the glue went into my eyes.
And my eyes got infected.
Doctor advised me not to wear my contacts for the time being as I could get myself blind.
My hands and legs were bitten by the 'Commando' mosquitos.
Everyone who was bitten was fine.
Only me...*sob sob*
I had a total of 10 bites.
And all 10 of them were swollen.
*sob sob*
Poor me...
I was touched this morning when I opened my room door.
A little note left by my mom.
"Girl, I went down at 4 am in the morning to buy fish balls noodles for you,
cause you said earlier you felt like eating.
Later you wake up,you just make it hot.
It is in the rice cooker already.
I going down to the shop alone.I didn't want to wake your daddy up.
I didn't want to talk to him.
Take care of yourself k."
My dad and Mom had a quarrel the day before.
That's why my mom didn't want to talk to my dad.
I looked around the house and my dad not in sight.
I called Brendan who was working next to our shop.
And he told me that after my Mom reached the shop by herself,
my dad reached the shop 15 mins later.
Apparently,he rushed down himself.
Once he knew my mom left home alone.
Guess I could finally understood why my Mom choses my dad then.
For my dad,he had a bad mouth...but a good heart.
I love you,Mommy...and I love you too...Daddy.
ends at 4:58 PMwith love ♥
♥Wednesday, August 24, 2005♥
Henry brought me out with his friends.
To this amasing place,with no roads...
only paths for his beloved car to go through.
Very dark , no lights at all...with grass...trees...sea...and a BEAUTIFUL view.
I was so anxious,I get out from the car...
Walked towards the view...
*EEE......*
I got caught in a huge spider web!!!
And the huge spider landed itself on my hands...
*Eee....Help!!!!*
*Jumping up and down*
Stupid Henry still look at me and laughed.
Somehow,due to my jumping around,the spider got scared off...
Stupid spider...stupid Henery...Stupid me...
Thankfully,
The view was great.
We were enjoying ourselves,
until we all started scratching ...
Our hands and feets were bitten by mosquitos!
I was the one ,who kept scratching non-stop.
I had VERY sensitive skin.
"Sorry to bring you here, and ended up bitten by the mosquitos,"
looking at me...
He was so sweet...
*I felt like melting.*
Perhaps,all good things will come to an end.
And we left the place shortly after...
Really happy to have met them.
A very fun loving bunch of guys.
Willie...Terrance...
Nice knowing you all...specially you.
Henry.
ends at 1:29 AMwith love ♥
♥Tuesday, August 23, 2005♥
Was my off day yesterday.
I was so busy at night...(as if I am doing some big business.)
I went to Raffles city to look for Jazz.
Met up with Peter for dinner at Cafe Cartel.
That was him,When he was much younger then...Mmm...15?
Really nice catching up 'the good old times' with him.
It had been years,
he grew at the width instead of his length.
A very health cautious person.
So ever afraid of going to clubs because ,of the second hand smoke.
He had 3 friends died because of cancer.Because of 'smoke.'
'What the heck.'
If I gotten die.
I gotten die with a smile.
At least I knew I made 'good' used of my dear life.
Sleep... Gossips ... Shop... Party... Eat...
My dad used to tell me:
If you gotten die,you stand in the bus stop you also will kana bang by car.
*Laughing*
"Mind you"
It really happened before,lucky not to me la.
If not I won't be here to tell you all ,all these cock and bull story.
Coming back to My busy night...
Met up with Siao hei and his friends for a movie.
It a small world!!!
Me and Siao Hei...
One of Siao Hei's friends,name Michelle,
Was from the same secondary school ,
not only that,
I knew her elder sis's best friend.(Someone quite close to me also.)
And we stayed a walking distance from each other only!!!
One more clubbing kakis to be added in my list!
'Valiant',was a VERY Short movie.Noticed the VERY in caps?
It's less then 1h 30mins!But...We had our laughs.But...It's still VERY Short!!!(Noticed that I am complaining?)***Ps:Ben,if you are reading this,I didn't mean to turn down the date.I promise to meet up with you on thursday.Please don't hate me...
ends at 8:46 AMwith love ♥
♥Monday, August 22, 2005♥
| What Your Dreams Mean... |
Your dreams seem to show that you're a bit disturbed... but nothing serious.
You may have a problem you're trying to work out in your sleep.
You tend to be a very productive thinker.
You have a very vivid imagination and a rich creative mind.
You secretly want to hide your dreams from your waking mind.
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What Do Your Dreams Mean?
ends at 7:30 PMwith love ♥
♥Sunday, August 21, 2005♥
"Never promise him that you'll love him forever,
because your forever might end the next day.
Love him as if each day is the last."
I read this, from one of the blogs.
*I simpily had to agreed...*
ends at 4:49 AMwith love ♥
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Brendan came over to my shop with his guitar and the
'Chocolate covered marble cake' ,
which he baked.
Then...
He started singing a song for me,right in my shop!
How sweet can a guy get ?
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The very first thing when I came home,
I repacked my room...
Hoping that My beloved ring maybe found.
Lady luck wasn't with me.
I took out the pendant.
(For the first time...of 3 years.)
It's too sad to put it on without the matching ring.
Tears came down...
I really miss my ring.
ends at 4:08 AMwith love ♥
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Finally,managed to take a photo with Kym.
Me with specs...
*So good girl*
Oh ya...
And the pink Cashbox I painted.
* Nice? *
ends at 4:01 AMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, August 20, 2005♥
Clubbing at MoMo just to make myself forget about my ring...
Most of my friends where there .(Yes...as usual.)
Got to know a guy there.
Nice knowing him though.
He was the guy who manage to save me and my girl friends from the long long queue.
Saw Mark there.
His birthday is a few days away.
Anyway...it doesn't matter.
What matter was,
I am having fun.
Thats all I cared about.
Went Velvet at 3am....
My friends, Brendan and Shaun were there.
Promised them that I would turned up.
And so... I did.
Working next day...So didn't stayed long.
Nice partying with them .
Great friends...Great night.
ends at 5:45 AMwith love ♥
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*With watery eyes*
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I lost my Diamond Ring!!!
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*Tears rolling down*
I couldn't recall where I misplaced it.
I didn't realised it until the late afternoon,when I leaving for work.
I searched my whole room.
Apparently I REALLY over-turn my whole room,
And there's no sign of my...Ring.
I am so fraid that I lost it at 'Cafe Cartel',
as I took out my ring to try out Ah Bao's new ring.
Because of my poor memory.
I couldn't remember at all ,if I did wore it back.
That diamond ring cost me $2000+++
And it's actually a matching set with my pendant.
I blame myself for being so careless...
I blame myself for being so forgetfull...
"I really do hope that I actually misplaced it at home.
At least I will be able to find it one day."
Please do pray for me that,I will manage to find it back...
Please...
ends at 5:09 AMwith love ♥
♥Tuesday, August 16, 2005♥
I'LL STAND BY YOU
OH, WHY YOU LOOK SO SAD?
TEARS ARE IN YOUR EYES
COME ON AND COME TO ME NOW
DON'T BE ASHAMED TO CRY
LET ME SEE YOU THROUGH
'CAUSE I'VE SEEN THE DARK SIDE TOO
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU
YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO
NOTHING YOU CONFESS
COULD MAKE ME LOVE YOU LESS
I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
SO IF YOU'RE MAD, GET MAD
DON'T HOLD IT ALL INSIDE
COME ON AND TALK TO ME NOW
HEY, WHAT YOU GOT TO HIDE?
I GET ANGRY TOO
WELL I'M A LOT LIKE YOU
WHEN YOU'RE STANDING AT THE CROSSROADS
AND DON'T KNOW WHICH PATH TO CHOOSE
LET ME COME ALONG
'CAUSE EVEN IF YOU'RE WRONG
I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR
AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
AND WHEN...
WHEN THE NIGHT FALLS ON YOU, BABY
YOU'RE FEELING ALL ALONE
YOU WON'T BE ON YOUR OWN
I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
TAKE ME IN, INTO YOUR DARKEST HOUR
AND I'LL NEVER DESERT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU
WON'T LET NOBODY HURT YOU
I'LL STAND BY YOU This was by a 'special friend' whom I met recently...Who told me this was what he felt after reading my blog.*Very sweet of him.**Very*"Thank you..."
ends at 10:54 AMwith love ♥
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" Things may happen when You least expected it to be.Where else,somethings that you forced or wanted it to be,The more...It wouldn't be."
ends at 3:22 AMwith love ♥
♥Sunday, August 14, 2005♥
This is how you order a jar of tiger:Give me, one ...
Jar...
Of tiger.
ends at 4:14 AMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, August 13, 2005♥
Huh?MoMo again!!!With Shi hua.(This is a different person.Just coincidentally the same name.)
*Laugh until so happy*Very long never met up with her liao.Very crowded!The music wasn't as good as wednesday.But still we did enjoy ourselves.Except...There's this lady,Who I consider as "Killer dancer".She kills my back ,when she kept knocking me with her elbow.She kills my face,when her long ,curly hair kept sweeping onto my face.She kills my dancing mood when she kept moving closer and closer to me.Last but not least...She kills me ...when I ain't enjoying myself!Pardon me.I did a very 'bad girl' stun.When I could no longer stand it.I let her taste her own medicine!I don't have curly hair...But I do have long straight hair and strong elbow.*Back off *Anyway...enough of her.I get to know a guy there though.It was when He asked for my name.He recalled he had actually met me before.(Seldom girls in Singapore will have the name Koji.)(It's actually a japanese guy's name.)In a place i used to work ...3 years ago.He described my tattoos to me,reminded me,my broke up.(with another ass hole whom I used to date.)That was also dated 3 years back.And he remembered...We exchanged numbers.Talking about numbers...I bought a new handphone!!!Motorola V3.
The design is great!But...the camera...Err...VGA la...
Very blurr right?But...It really took my heart with the design...
ends at 3:07 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, August 11, 2005♥
The True You |
| You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. |
| With respect to money, you spend whatever you have. |
| You think good luck doesn't exist - reality is built on practicalities. |
| The hidden side of your personality tends to be satisfied to care for things with a minimal amount of effort. |
| You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. |
| When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you don't have any particular type in mind, but you are inclined to look for someone who will say yes when you ask him / her out. |
ends at 11:35 PMwith love ♥
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I been having nightmares for these past few days.I was so afraid.Today I woke up,breaking into cold sweat,shouting for help!!!In my dreams were all ghosts.I didn't remember,what had happened.But I felt disturbed.I chanted prayers to make myself go back to sleep.I didn't dare to move or open my eyes.Hoping it would just be what it was...A night mare.
ends at 3:11 PMwith love ♥
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Wednesday night =Ladies night.Went to Club MoMo again...Went with Ben and a few of this friends.Normally,I seldom would go clubbing with a group of guys.I scare I may feel too embarrass to dance with them.But i seems to lose myself yesterday!I was actually having fun.I kept dancing non-stop.*No wonder ...now i barely could feel my feets .*I was shocked when I was approached by other guys.I am with a group of guys!!!I meant... if I saw a guy with a group of girls,I wouldn't had approached him .Politely...everyone of them asked me,if any of them were my boyfriend.*Sadly...I am so fucking single!*Now i sound desperate.Of course i didn't tell them that.I just smile and said..."no!"Let me have a brief description of the 'victims' .(There wouldn't be other names except me and Ben ....Because ,I had forgotten all their names! I was so into dancing, I didn't bothered.)1---He danced behind me.It was when I turned around we met eye to eye and smiled.He took a drink over to me,But I rejected his kind offer.(I didn't intend to drink a drink whom I don't know off.)Then he asked if I were attached?Knowing that I am single,He offered the drink to Ben's friend who was standing next to me.When Ben's friend was drinking,(I could feel most of it were accidently poured onto my feets.) I didn't want to make a big fuss over the drink (which actually washed my feet.)"Is it too thick?" Just in case the victim 1 wants to be 'funny'. He shaked his head..."It's just nice!" I didn't mention to him about my heels and my feets. *Just nodded and smile.*2---Victim 2 was kind of daring.He pulled me over to dance with him.Holding my hands.(Luckly...He is good looking.Or else I would had given him a tight slap.)Then comes the question...Knowing my status,He introduced himself.A mixed japanese guy...Who can danced very well...After 2 dance with him,i told him...I had to accompany my friends.(Meaning Ben and his friends.)And I just push pass him.'Now to think of it...What am I thinking at that time?'*Shake head.*3---Approached me to asked if I am Malay or chinese?Intro himself.Then ...again...the question.We chatted for a little while and passes some glimpses.He wanted my number.I didn't intend to give.Being friendly...I told him to give me his.And I shall call him later the night.(Till now...I didn't...)4---Victim 4 just stood there in the middle of the dancing crowd.Kept looking at me.We exchanged smiles.Managed to chat a little while.(Just for the sake of that question i suppose.)It was then,Victim3 held on to my hand and pulled me up the podium.I was so afraid of falling down.It had been years since I got myself on the podium.*Think I really getting old.*Then He wanted to carry me up to the higher podium.I quicky ran away.*Scare me to death.*I wasn't prepared to.Tell you all a little secret about me.I was actually a dancer.Really...In some company i used to work with.It had been years.4 years?After that,I had never danced on a podium.I don't think I had the guts to do it.*Call me...Old woman with a small heart.*Sad to leave...But all of us were so tired.Ben was sweet enough to send me home.Chatted a little while more, downstairs my block.*Damn tired.*My mom came into my room,informed me that , she would leave food in the rice cooker.To keep warm.I think she already prepared that I won't be going in for work tomorrow.*Blushed*
ends at 1:47 PMwith love ♥
♥Tuesday, August 09, 2005♥
Friends called up,demanding to know whats wrong with me.Staying at home for a holiday eve.I decided to go for a coffee.Not into the mood of clubbing.Ben came over to fetch me to 'Can Cafe.'Were We meet up with Shi Hua.Speaking about 'Can Cafe.'I see it grew from just a small shop house to now:3 shop houses together side by side...they even opened the second floor !!!Thats how crowded the place was.Business should be good I supposed.The deco of 'Can cafe.'
They had changed all their cute waitress to China girls!Although their english was poor.But they were very polite.Not bad service.But...the food and drinks...*Thumps down.*Business was good...they hurried to deliver orders.They neglected their strandards,they once had.They did add in a few new creations.But the way they mixed the drinks...It's either too much of these or too much of that...Shi hua ordered ...A coffee drink with rum and baileys.*puked*Trust me.You be drunk after drinking the 'coffee'.There's no taste of coffee at all!They had putted in,too much rum.
We ordered top shell also,The top shell that they gave us,from directly from the can!!!They were not cut up.But still...credits were given for their cozy deco.You can probably find some antiques in there.The owner had a whole collection of them.
"Alamak!!! Too dark la..."
Me and cannot see...Ben.
Went Mustafa shopping Centre.As it was open 24 hours.That was Shi hua's first time being there.And she was in the end...the one,spending the most!It about 3 am, when we finally ended our shopping.Sent Shi hua home,as she still have to wake up early the next morning.Ben then brought me to Seletar reservior.We sat down on the rocks...And chatted.
Got to learn some things from him.Somethings that had been bothering me...and finally the knot was untangled.He explained to me...what I had done wrong in my past relationships.He talked me out.He letted me realised some stuffs ,I wouldn't believe into.
This was just one of the parts, he said:
"For me,being together meant two person being happy with each other accompany.There's no reason why holding on if, you were the only one being happy here.
Doing some stuffs that will satisfy your own happiness and making the the other party suffer for you,wasn't love at all.
Loving a person ,you would hoped the person to be happy.
Even if it meant,not being with him.
Loving a person meant loving his everything.If you want him to change,then the person won't be him anymore. Accepting the person as he is.
Loving him...
Loving everything about him."
*Enough said*
ends at 2:21 PMwith love ♥
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