♥Sunday, July 31, 2005♥
Recieved a call in the morning that my shop had been broke in.The doors from one of the cupboards, fell opened revealing a little part of the stocks we had.Once I reached my shop,I found out that the handphone shop besides us,was also broken in.But the breaker only managed to break open half.And there's nothing in the shop!That's because ...The Handphone shop was always the one kana broke in.May have 3 times in 3 months.Per month once!!!I mean...If the shop had broken in once,the owner would in turn be smart and start to take precautions right?Why would the 'stupid person' kept trying his luck on the same shop?As he couldn't get anything from the handphone shop,He decided to try his luck ,with the shop beside ...And thats my shop!!!What the hell...I had nothing to offer in my shop except babies clothings.But I can actually feel , whats the breaker was feeling after he broke into our shop.My shop was in the middle of 2 other handphone shops.He tried the 'popular one' couldn't get anything,Then decided to try his luck with my shop.The cupboard which My cash box is in.Was tighted locked...With pad locks!And I don't leave any cash behind.Only my clothings and my cute pink cash box were left behind.*Laughing*The breaker was damn fed up lor! (I suppose...)He should be cursing and swearing after he saw what he had broken into.*Laughing*Neverless, I changed the locks of the all my cupboards.Must be caution mah.The poor breaker must now be damn desperate...
ends at 11:41 PM
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♥Saturday, July 30, 2005♥
Went over to Shi hua's boyfriend's friend's house.*complicated.*They were having a barbecue ,a small farewell party.The person...Benny.He is going back to Australia to study on monday.Quite a big house,with 'swimming pool.'But they converted it to a big pond,with alot of japanese Koi.Actually...Shi hua ,me and the others girls (some other guys gf.)Were like *yawn*'Should know what I mean.'I slept 3 hours yesterday.Tomorrow still have to work.Tired...
ends at 2:29 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, July 29, 2005♥
Just a note:I rejected the job offer.I had a long chat with my mom.She still wants me to help out with her.But I am doing some adjustments to the place.I want to give the shop a brand new look.Everyday,I planned to do on bit by bits.I already attacked the cash box!I painted the cashbox PINK!!!*Laughing*Next week,I shall be hands on making my design,this time...It's for adult.It wouldn't be just drawing...I will be making the whole outfit out.Wish me luck...*****Oh ya...I am thinking of taking up Salsa!It's the 'It' thing now in the season.But I am still a little scare to enrol alone.Anyone care to join me?
ends at 11:23 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, July 28, 2005♥
So busy at work yesterday!A 'Long-time-no see' friend called me.Joyce is her name.Brought her baby girl along to buy some clothings from me.I noticed she kept looking at my face.Asked me if i still do club and stuffs.After she left,the first thing I did was to reach for my mirror.*Shocked*My makeup had melted!!!My sweat,due to the heat, had washed away most of my make up.And whats left on my face was only patches of cream concealer,that I applied to cover my pimples!!!No wonder she kept looking at my face!!!She should be thinking ,'What the Hell happen to her?'.I swear I would check on my make up every now and then...
ends at 11:11 PMwith love ♥
♥Tuesday, July 26, 2005♥
Going to my interview later.Noticed the job in the papers yesterday.Had a chat with my mom .I didn't tell her I will be going for the interview.But she wanted me back to help her out.I will quietly just go to the interview ,but will be back to help her out tomorrow.Anyway...Wish me luck...
ends at 11:22 AMwith love ♥
♥Monday, July 25, 2005♥
Actually wanted to go back to the pervious job i used to have.I was thinking,since i didn't had faith in love,why not just concentrate on earning more money?With money,I should be happy right?Woke up the next morning,I didn't want to...and i couldn't bring myself to.I had changed my complete lifestyle.From smoking...Drinking...Clubbing...I am no longer the Koji I used to be."You aren't mixing around any more aren't you?I did see all your 'sisters' only you were missing.You like totally disappear.To me,I still prefer the Last time Koji...who seems happier.If you going back to the job.You will be back the way you were Slowly.Trust me."This was said to me by Or leng.Wasn't sure if this is call grown up.I couldn't just go back to my past.Or maybe I began to love myself more?
ends at 10:54 AMwith love ♥
♥Sunday, July 24, 2005♥
Went Ktv with Chelz.Too lazy to go clubbing ,yet didn't want to spent our saturday at home.Although I am very miserable with my love life.But I am glad I have friends like Chelz,Wendy,Shi hua,Jessy...etc...They were always there for me.Should be thankful enough.Miserable relations = good friendships.Well...this balance up.Let's just say...God is fair.I am going on a strict diet.Determine to get back the figure i used to have.
ends at 12:03 PMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, July 23, 2005♥
At times when a long term relationship had ended.Getting too adapt to someone,then finding out later that he no longer was beside me.Guess what Chelz said was right after all.I am too used to him.I msg a 'thank you' message to him.Looking around my room.Thought of him,Of the past,he used to come to my shop, even when I am overseas to help out .*Smile*I knew I was missing the past.Things changes with time.I should be glad that it should had once exists.Although I am a greedy person who actually hoped it does last forever.It's too naive to be thinking this way.Maybe nothing good last forever?'Remember it this way'.
ends at 11:37 PMwith love ♥
♥Friday, July 22, 2005♥
Didn't went to Bao Bao birthday in the end.Wasn't feeling well.Finally got a chance to watch 'Stairway to Heaven' the vcd Wendy had lent to me.My eyes were so swollen.My double eye lids had even disappeared!I was crying most of the time.The actress cry...I cried.*So touching...**So sad.*
Yet...
*So loving.*
ends at 11:31 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, July 21, 2005♥
Can't seems to get to sleep yesterday.Been thinking alot again...Looking back at my past.I didn't knew why, but tears rolled down my cheeks.I knew it's useless looking back.What done can never be undone.I know i shouldn't be so negative.Yet I can't stop myself.There's people coming in and out of my life.And the problem was...The person that I thought of the most,was Kiong.I took out all his letters and read them one by one again.I knew he and me were not meant to be.And never could be.Just that...Maybe i lonely?Although there are times that he treated me VERY badly,But...When I am in trouble or I needed someone by myside.He had always be there for me.I could still remember ...I like the way he just sat there quietly,Looking at me,with his( double eye lids and long lashes) eyes.His breath and the feeling when he hugged me.Any way,that's the past.Memories...I shouldn't have.
In the end,Covered me from harms by others,
unknowingly,
the harm i got most...
was by him.
ends at 5:08 AMwith love ♥
♥Wednesday, July 20, 2005♥
Having headache again.Very happy...Finally bought my wine glass.But I got a problem.I don't drink Wine!So instead I drank Apple juice.Same colour mah.*Laughing*
I don't know if it's the apple juice that I liked or is the feeling when I held on the glass.I kept on drinking .Read newspaper ...About Hung Na case.And I believe most of us would had known.Large crowd appeared in the court for the trial.(Because most of them wanted to see the 'star'.)The star that I am refering to was none other then Hung Na's mother herself.The question is,Is there a need to...for all these?It's sad enough that her daughter had died in our country .(Althought I felt partly was her fault. She as a mother should have taken care of her own child.I didn't agreed on what she do.Attracting the media.What for write a leaving note to her daughter,On her death bed?Then showing it to the media?She haven't been able to tell the poor girl,She was loved when she was alive.And now that she was dead...a note was needed to pass those message.Wasn't that pathetic enough?A message to the dead,would be respected if it's written out of heart.I didn't agreeded to the way she used the media to her advantages.Donations and stuffs...)In this country,There are families members who had died.In some cases ...much worst state then Hung Na.But none of them attracted as much media as her.Why?Is there really a need to have all these commotions.Moreover it's the court room that we are talking here.It's embrassing ,showing the darker side of us...Singaporean.Please show some respect both for yourself and for the dead.From reports like an old man, queuing just to see her ...To find out the colour of her hair!Other's reported that she loses weight.To prove what?If she was miserable to the lost of her daughter or if she was enjoying with her donations of money?
ends at 11:29 AMwith love ♥
♥Tuesday, July 19, 2005♥
Couldn't get to sleep.I've been thinking...*deep in thoughts*I believe everything that had happened would had it's own reasons.Didn't want to explain,didn't meant gulity.Even with proof...is there a need to?When I meant ,I didn't want to lie.I meant it.What the comments would be,or what those people would think of me,I didn't bother.I wouldn't care less.Knew me as who I am but not what I am.Preserving the memories...Preservings the things...with memories...Keeping it's original way .If you had heard..."I wan it the same ,as it used to be."I had done wrong once.But it's definately not this time.Sometimes,it's alright to give people the chance to hear what they wanted to say.Some things are better off cleared.In time to come,Looking back is what we often do.And there maybe questions...which actually could had answers.
ends at 3:46 AMwith love ♥
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Just got back from work.Tired.Nothing much happen at work today.Except , saw an old friend .Found out from her ,she had just been married .And so was my another groups of girlfriends.What the hell!!!I not married nevermind.But boyfriend also don't have.She didn't believe,until I had to swear.Nobody wants me...*sob*I did chatted with ah one today.He asked me if I still interested in the door host job.Now I am confused.Should I or should I not?I am still considering.I am interested in having another source of income.But I am afraid ,I may ended up neglecting my day job.Didn't really know if I can cope.Dreamy on my way to work... Early in the morning...
Huh?
Act cute again.
At work...
Tired la...'Eat snake' for awhile.
ends at 12:37 AMwith love ♥
♥Monday, July 18, 2005♥
We at tcc...After our swimming session....Found out that,We actually had a same goal.
Damn act cute lor.I look like shit without Makeup.
Wendy pissed off with my cam.(Her eyes can't seems to be open...)
Ar... Finally...
ends at 10:25 AMwith love ♥
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So before I go to work.I going to do a quick post here.Went swimming in ' Caroline 'condo.But were chased out shortly as Caroline wasn't there.Apparently,Caroline finished work at 9pm.Shi hua and me actually wanted to swim ealier...Lucky us,Once we went in the pool,We swam around 6-7 laps.Looking at Shi hua,I really regretted putting Tattoo."Why don't you change here?"(In the bath room.)"Don't want la...got children outside lei.Wait I scare them off how?""Won't la..""Ok lor."(Once after taking off my top.)"Err...ya,I think you will scare them off."(Once she saw my back tattoo!!!)This was the first time she saw my back tattoo!*Faint.*When I told this to Siao hei,he asked me why did I put so much tattoo in the first place."Last time my dream was to be an ah lian mah...""And now you did it liao mah."*Banging my head on the wall*What sia?There's so many things I regretted doing in the past.If I had know...I already strike 4D liao.But still,I sian...
ends at 10:00 AMwith love ♥
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This was the first time,I felt so 'bad' about myself.I actually thought,my card do still have some money in the bank.But only discover later that, I am dead broke.Shi Hua had to help me pay for my meals and our ktv sessions.*So pai sei*Thanks Shi hua.I swear to myself.I am nothing gotten let this ever happen again.I going back to work.I REALLY BUCKING UP THIS TIME.IF I EVER LAZ AGAIN!(PLEASE NEXT TIME IF YOU SEE ME ON THE STREET ,SPIT ON MY FACE.)I will NEVER like that again!!!I swear.
ends at 9:50 AMwith love ♥
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I still didn't know what to do.Although we talked."Wait for me.""Give me a month.I promise."*Half of me wanted to ...another just didn't want to.*I had never been in this position before.Yesterday night,Rain and thunder describe my feelings.Feelings of him being draggy in his ' maybe going to breakup relationship.'I mean...If one person wants to leave,nothing can stop him right?Come on,We all had been through break ups.I didn't like people telling me all those 'sweet stuffs' ,girls would actually dying to hear.I am more pratical.Don't tell me about me being your wife.Too many guys had proposed marriage to me ...even in front of my mom.And I am so 'Ba' with it.But what the fuck.I am still single?In the end.I decided ...I didn't want to.I couldn't.I am a girl who like to express my feelings,both in actions and expressions.And i can't ...now.I am so confused!!!Anyone could give me some advises?
ends at 5:47 AMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, July 16, 2005♥
He called...After reading my post.We are meeting for dinner...*Half happy...Half confused.*Update later...
ends at 6:13 PMwith love ♥
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Eugene,If you are reading this.I wanna tell you ,I'm missing you.But ...yet I am forbidden to see you.Which makes us...not so perfect.When you told me ,that you were missing me too,How I wish you were beside me.Looking at me.Telling me this is not just a dream.A dream may not be furfill...Is it a good thing ,to be thinking of me, yet the one beside you isn't me?I wonder?All those words you said ,were they just sweet words or words proclaiming the truth.The truth from your heart?If you gotten lie. Lie to me forever...I hoped ,I will be able to stand strong.I didn't dare to make you chose cause I wasn't ready to hear what i ain't wanted to.And if I ever fell weak...Please don't blame me.For this 8 years...We finally met up .And I guess...Thats nothing more i could ask for.Signing off,Dreams of you,Koji kwek.
ends at 3:21 AMwith love ♥
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Guess everyone by now ,knew about the news of Nfk.What sia?Had anyone known about the London bombing?What sia?It's also strange that Singaporeans care more about NKF than the London Bombings. Just because people donated money to NKF while no Singaporeans died in the bombings?Or the bombing don't take place in Singapore?Hello?We are talking about lives here.What the heck.SGD500K-600K per year is exceedingly high for a CEO,especially their form was coming out as a donation group.Each of us ,singaporean should had watched the Nkf donation shows.Featuring all those Actor and actress doing 'dangerous' stunts.In exchange for viewers donations.All those short films that they featured,showing how terrible and suffering the patients were.Asking kind hearted souls out there ,pleading them for helps...in this case,It'll be donation.And now,the truth is out.a mercedes slk...Flying first class...Golden tap...closed financial statement...Undisclosed pay...Everyone had suddenly stopped their donations.And now the case is fighting in court.Greed was the word why all these happen...
ends at 2:07 AMwith love ♥
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Think I am over doing it.SAVE ME!!!I can't stop my mouth from eating chocolate!Me and my sweet tooth.***' Eat ... Sleep ... Chocolate ... '' Eat ... Sleep ... Chocolate ...'
' Eat ... Sleep ... Chocolate ...'***I am going crazy!!!(unwrapping another bar...)So sinful!I am going to be miss piggy!Stop me!!!!
ends at 1:44 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, July 15, 2005♥
ends at 1:04 PMwith love ♥
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I was chatting with Chelz over breakfast.We discussed and wonder where had all those 'gentlemen' went to?Guys in these generation ,seems to be lack of that.The past of what we call,'Ladies first.'Little acts of senting the woman right to her door steps ,after a date with her.Or even paying for the meals on the dates. We call that:'The type of man with the touch of class.'Love like there's no tomorrow...Is that why I am still single?I wasn't that pretty...but I ain't ugly either.I wonder...
ends at 12:37 PMwith love ♥
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Early morning woken up by my parent's quarrel.About money again!!!I was laughing yet angry.Laughing at what my dad says,laughing at how my mom argues.Angry at the words he uses,Angry at her for helping him.A little more about me and my family.I wasn't born in a silver spoon.My character and temper follows my dad...I was actually closer to my dad when I was much younger.But I became Naughty,and turned the whole house up side down!I had a bad habit in the past.I would often cut myself after every quarrels.Just to 'release' my temper and remembering them.Leaving scars on my left hand...Everyone in my family is those'study types'.And i am the odd one out.Going through all those 'downs' in my life, i could say...I became a better person.But my dad still blames me though , as he actually laid high hopes on me.And i crashed them one after the other.He do still love me...(no matter how,he can't change the facts that i'm still his daugther.)'Blood is always thicker then water.'Just that He didn't want to show it out.But trust me,when mishaps happen in our family,we would come out as team.' Protective over each other.'Guess,every family will have problems.Mine is just one of them.My dad had a bad habit.He loves gambling.And my mom loves him...9 years of courtship and 23 years of marriage.They do have little actions at times,showing their love for each other.Which makes them ...loving.Remember there's this time, a man (a boss) from a few shops next to ours.Came over and actually scolded my mom.The next day,My dad nearly had a fight with him.That coward ran away.If that guy ever touches my dad.I will skin him alive.'Try me'.I'm a person ,who ...anything could happen to me...but not to my love ones.I often told my mom,i hoped i would die first before her.It would be too painful to see her leave.Seeing them quarrel about money issue,I didn't want to be like them.' Money cannot buy everything...but without money you are nothing.'The whole business of ours,all the money earned goes to the family.And market had been bad...but I guess we are the lucky ones.Who could still stand firm as a small business scale.I had been relaxing for too long.I am dead broke and I had bills to pay.I better buck up.
ends at 11:18 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, July 14, 2005♥
I changed my mind the last min,and decided to celebrate my birthday in a hotel.I decided try Hotel 1929.The hotel were a made up of a few shop houses.It's call Hotel 1929,because the shophouses were build in year1929.The hotel was well known all around the world!I actually wanted to book the suite room.But!!!It is fully booked even for this year christmas and new year eve.Count myself lucky...I was able to book a deluxe room as there's a last min of cancellation.The standard room is way too small.What makes this hotel special,was having modern designs deco.Both for the hotel and the Rooms.A few pics of the room i booked...
That's the only table in the room...With the Lcd tv.
The basin ...
The bed with the furry furry pillow...
Chelz,just can't resist the rocking chair.Rock here...rock there...
The see through toliet...
Peek - a - boo?
Anyone dare to go to the toliet?
There's no cupboard in this hotel.
With the toliet build this way,
With it's rocking chair...
*Kinky*
*wink*
Very good for couples,
Time to get naked!!!
My poor feets...A lesson taken from wearing covered high heels shoes.All these plasters are provided by Eugene,(Came over to the supermarket where i bought snacks to the hotel.)He couldn't make it to my birthday,but the least he could do,was to bring me the plasters when i needed them.*Poor me*
"Your hands wasn't the same as the past...""Your legs wasn't like that in the past...""You have been through alot these few years...""It really hurts me when I see you became this way..."Apparentlly...8 years ago,My hands were soft and smooth.My legs were fair and smooth.It wasn't just my age that grows.My skin grows with my age too!Okie...finished up my complains.Had my dinner at a restaurant in the Hotel's lobby.The lamb was great!!!The owner of the hotel,loves to collect chairs.(Different designs of chairs.)
Looks like the seat from the bicycle...
Chelz...*blur* *blur*
In the restuarant...
In the Lobby...
My girlfriends...
My Buddy...
My buddy and her hubby...
My bro...and his 'round' mountain.
Binson trying his best to open the bottel of red wine...
Aaron enjoying the wine.
Err....Why like that?
They are not gay!Just Nicholas and Micheal,Fooling around...
My birthday cake...
Make a wish and blow the candles...
Want to eat?
Then we played poker cards.Loser draw on the face!
All that were drawn on the face...
And those who get away with it...
Last but not least...Me and my friends,(Anyone who could ever asked for...)
Nicholas and me...
Aaron and me...
Barry came to join us later...
Elvin and Nicholas.Going home...
I only asked a few of my close friends.Carine and Belle,couldn't make it.
But we shall meet up next week.
A big thank you for coming ,and for all your presents.
I also want to thank Chelz...For staying with me till the next morning...Best friends for life.
Although nothing really exciting did happen,but i am happy , for just being with them.
Gather together.Or maybe Shihua said is right?
Those that born on July 13 is some how,'different.'
But still...You are the best.
*Muacks*
Signing off,feeling wonderful,Koji Kwek.
ends at 6:33 PMwith love ♥
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