♥Thursday, June 30, 2005♥
I damn Angry .*smoke coming out *Told me that we are out of topics to talk about,while his 'wondering' eyes wonders on his computer screen.It was his god damn game again!!!Game...Game...Game...All he ever cared for was his game.I did a blog for him.Just wanted to give him something...But,he didn't seems the least bit interested.All he cared was his game again...I had spent my efforts creating the blog for him.*hurt and disappointed.*Why is his love always seems so sleek.*dishearted*'At times...I wonder,why did I felt in love with you...'
ends at 11:44 PM
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This is delicated to ...Mark lim.I didn't know how to tell you.How happy you made me when the moment i woke up,and you were still on the phone waiting for me.Just being there,hearing your voice as you spoke...Hello? *priceless*There are much more things about you,and the thoughts of you that made me glad I met you.Yet there's also stuffs that made me wonder why had I met you?Through all the ups and downs ...It had already been a year.For what you had done today,for me...I can see your efforts,and I just want to tell you ...Thank you...For being there for me.Signing off,loving you always...Koji kwek.
ends at 12:49 AMwith love ♥
♥Wednesday, June 29, 2005♥
I didn't manage to wake up this morning ,I was so tired and not to forget...giddy.Perhaps it was my Pms ,that I am losing blood ,and my body was always weak.But it frightens me this time as it had been so serious before.My brother went to help my mom to open the shop.My dad was at home,as he had hired someone to changed our toliets and kitchen windows.Me and my dad haven't been talking for quite a while.It had been a fact that I had trying my best to some how play 'hide and seek 'with him.I didn't dare to face him.Afraid he would go screaming his head off,Why he would had this 'kind' of daughter like me.I locked myself in my room.Didn't even dare to go out,to use the toilet.*coward*I sleep...wake up...sleep...wake up...When I heard the sound of my main gate closed.Lucky me,he had finally went out.I dashed my way to the toilet.The whole day,I was craving for chocolates.But i didn't dare to step out from the house.I was afraid,I might faint outside.Nicholas bought the chocolates that i love and hang it outside my door.He had to go to a few 7 eleven just to find the brand I liked.Very sweet of him...
ends at 11:21 PMwith love ♥
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Yesterday Night ...Was one of those terrible nights,one could never forgets.I was so giddy,nearly fainted when I was in the rest room of Altivo's.Every single time I had been to Altivo,It would never fails to add a Romantic touch.With it's nice senery,the nice amblence and the nice oldies 'music ' they played...It's was a perfect place for couples.But I didn't manage to go there as a couple.I went there with Wendy,Sky ,Nicholas,Micheal,Elvin and ,to came and join us later,Wendy's boyfriend Mark.And that's when the story begins...We were leaving ,Me in Elvin's car along with Nicholas,Sky was dead tired so he's going home without the hassle of fetching anyone of us back.Micheal rides his bike,and Wendy was in Mark's car.Our car left first ,but shortly after,my handphone rang.'Jie!!! come back! Wendy met an accident!!! Come back!'Our car drove back and I was in shock!The car was badly bangged right to the left side of the road.Lots of smoke was coming out from the car,(think i had watched too much tv shows!that I nearly thought the car was about to explode.)Wendy was standing outside the car,in daze...her right hand is injured,the right side of her face was swollen.Sky and me ,brought her to the hospitial,where else the rest stayed by Mark.Wendy wasn't really worried about herself actually she was more worried for Mark...Stupid girl...Lucky nothing really serious happen to her.I was quite angry with Mark actually.I do blamed him a for the accident.Or maybe I just felt heartache for Her.I' m always very protective to the ones i loves.She had 5 days Mc for that.Do hope she would get well soon.Althought I dislike Mark for the incident.But I never hated him.I do hoped things would turn out well for him too...
ends at 3:58 PMwith love ♥
♥Monday, June 27, 2005♥
These were the photos taken on the day I intro my cousin to My buddy Wendy...
My cousin is so per...fect!Until ...He started dancing!!!Okie,Let's just phrase it,God is always fair.He gave Melvin(my cousin)the looks,The style,the bright future,A little 'cannot dance ' shouldn't be the problem.But the problem was,Melvin was just hurt by a girl (hongkee)just recently.And he was going to his reservist.Mean While,Wendy had also found her Mark.*Please note!!!*Her mark and the Mark I mention here is 2 different person!!!*Get it right*So...there's no beginning but both were glad to have met.Let's just call it,'When the time wasn't right.'
ends at 4:12 PMwith love ♥
♥Sunday, June 26, 2005♥
Wanted to write out my feelings.But nothing seems to come out.Looking outside the taxi window,*confused*In my heart there's hopes,but in my mind i knew i shouldn't had.after all,we all knew jolly well that,more hopes = More disappointments.Yet ...Once in sight,i swear,i would be the happiest woman on earth.Sadly,I didn't manage to be one.Not even now.A line drawing through facts from frictions.Fairytales from reality.There's no tears in sight.Running backwards,drowning the 'heart.'Once again,I did it!Making a fool out of myself.What should I do now?I am so sick of writing all these love stuffs in all these posts.They aren't happy stuffs I could share.Mostly were because of 'broken loves' along with a 'broken heart.'I am so so... scattered .
ends at 7:54 AMwith love ♥
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Just went to watch Initial D.I longing to watch this show.Didn't went with Wendy as she busy with her, Mr 'Mark'.Jay chou was still the best.Chen xiao chun was great too.Or maybe I like guys with style...attitude.Don't Miss the show!!!At the last part,I cried.I cried so much that the person sitting a few seats beside me turned and stared at me!*pai sei*The part when Jay chou saw his girlfriend coming out from another guy's car,He turned and ran ,It was the same feeling of how i describe in my ealier post of,'I felt like running far far away.'And when Jay starts to run,my tears starts it's engine.But yet It's so sweet when scenes of Jay missing her.Those were what i call the act of 'being in Love'.How I hoped to have that kind of feeling...Smiling and daydreaming,thinking of the person i love.Yet most of the time,I am crying."Who is the person in your mind ,when you cried?All those unhappy things cause you to be quite emotional .I knew that there are things in your mind.I can see it in your eyes.Something is bothering you."
ends at 3:34 AMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, June 25, 2005♥
For the first time in my life...Holding back my anger.I thought i would get furious.Or crazy.But sadness took over me .I 'm losing myself.My mind went blank.And I felt so lost.Tears in my eyes kept pouring out.I didn't wanted It that way.I didn't know whether was it because Of the words ,Or...And here I typed.Hoping I could run far far away.I didn't and couldn't open my eyes to see the truth.A body without a soul.I was barely alive."AH!!!!!!!!!"
ends at 5:56 PMwith love ♥
♥Friday, June 24, 2005♥
Club 'Mo Mo',was a newly opened disco club.Saw lots of old friends there!The music was the same kind like what you get from Chinablack...R&B.Those friends that saw me were suprised.They haven't seen me for quite a period of time.It makes me sound so old.I haven't been mixing around,Just most of the time at home,Or either hanging out with my buddy I guess.It was then I found out that Wendy's Mark's friends...Mostly are my friends.Even his ex of 4 years is my friend too!Mark's cousin saw me many times befpre but we wasn't introduce.I knew his group of friends too!!!Singpore...is that small,everyone seems to know everyone else...
ends at 5:13 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, June 23, 2005♥
A very Happy birthday to you Shi Hua....Sorry that I can't be able to go to your birthday celebration.Me and my stupid Hong Mo!We meet up soon k...Love ya...Damn Happy!!!My com will be back tonight!Up Up and going...Talking about Birthday,My birthday is coming up lei.Will just come out for makan with some of my close friends.Everything to be just...simple.(I am getting older not younger...Nothing to celebrate about.Haiz...) Err...I very thick skin one.For those who is going to get presents for me,Yet don't know what I will like.I save you all the trouble of cracking your brains...*see I so good...*Theres A list of what you all can buy.*Wink*Or sponserships...* 1-----> Perfumes (Enernity moments) (Gucci envy me) (J'dore) (Chic)* 2----->Eyebrowns tattoos...* 3----->Makeover shots...*4----->Osim I squeeze.(the most ex and impossible one...)No more liao la...If can,Sponserships will be much better...Do consider my Number 2 and 3.Shareing is also allowed.*laughing*I really thickskin hor...*laughing*Anyway...If there's any questions for me,do leave a tag and I shall reply to you asap.Thanks huh...Signing off,Birthday coming aka Bei pai sei Koji...
ends at 2:45 PMwith love ♥
♥Monday, June 20, 2005♥
***Notice***My com is sick.It's going to the doctor ,cause I dropped my cpu on the floor,and there's a huge dent.It got worst when I tired to use hammer to hammer it back!!!My doc,finally comfirm that my mainboard is ill.It suffer from the sickness call crack.(that means my motherboard got crack la!)Who on earth will take their hammer to hammer their com?Next time if my com got virus,i take Shieldtox (bygone) and spray my com.*I going crazy*I won't be writing much as, I had 'hong mo'(rashes) and my com not with me!*unlucky me*I am using my bro's com now...And my back's is so itchy ...I won't be blogging for the next few days.Will update once my com recover.Thanks for your understanding.Love ya!!!*wave*
ends at 6:10 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, June 17, 2005♥
ends at 12:27 PMwith love ♥
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Nicholas brought me to see the Pck musical,(in the indoor stadium.)Everything was quite ok,except that the story line,wasn't really that good.Went Shisa,to meet up with Wendy and one more of her friend.Nicholas and his friend Micheal went over with me.Didn't enjoy Shisa today,i just felt my stomach being bloated,cannot take in anymore smoke!No good to come out gas from below la...Went over to East coast .And we played poker cards,till 4 am.***Later,I will be doing matchmakingI gotten let Wendy meet up with my cousin.Wendy's a good girl...so she deserved the best.And My cousin 'the handsome and is si bei available.'Maybe the right one.Hope things will work out.*pray**Laughing*Tell me where to find ,a good friend like me.Next time got handsome guy must intro me okie?*wink* *wink*
ends at 11:40 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, June 16, 2005♥
Oops...I just recalled something ...Actually at China black,I saw an old friend of mine.We just nodded at each other presence.A while later,He walked over to me,telling me that his friends wanted to know me.His friend walked over and introduced himself as Jimmy.Then he started asking questions..."What's your name?""How old are you?""You came with who?""You got boyfriend?"Then...He looked at me straight in my face ,"You very pretty hor..."*very lame*So,I did the next best thing...Looked back into his face,"Ya ,you also very yan dao lei..."*laughing*I asked him,if he could go away,Making excuses that I wanted to dance with Wendy.I quickly pull Wendy over.Some of his friends walked over to talk to Wendy.*Laughing*There's this bloody fellow walked over to me,asking me if he could know me."No!"I turn away and danced.He didn't give up.When I was taking my bag from the baggage counter.He came over and told me that he already noticed me from Devils bar last time.*I lied*"I never go Devils bar before."'Got I also will say don't have'*laughing*Why that guy so thick skin huh?I already said I don't want to know him.Majiam If he asked the second time,I will change my mind!That Jimmy kept messaging me,saying he want to sent me home and stuffs.Told him I am in the cab on the way home,He still insisted to follow me home!*What the hell!*Another stalker...He called when I am at Mr bean.Wendy pass my phone to Martin.*laughing*Martin just told him,I am sleepng...And today,He called again.Asked me where I be going.Said he wanted very much to meet me.As usual,he started to ask questions again!"Yesterday ,that guy is it your husband?""Are you those sort of girls who look in a guy,must have car,must be rich?"'What makes you think so?'"Six sense."'If your six sense is so accurate,it's a waste you don't work as fortune teller.'*Piss off*I hang up his call.He did eventually called back and apologized.But I kept hanging up his calls.His name had became my top chart of 'the list of person' I blacklisted.A pure breed Asshole . 
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Went to Phuture again!Yes..with Wendy and Shi hua.But, we move to Chinablack awhile later.This was the very first time,Wendy asked me if I wanted to makan after clubbing.This was a once in a life time thing.So where can don't go...We actually wanted to have Shisa .But unfortunately,they are closed.So we went to the next best place...Mr bean.Martin joined us later.We chatted and chatted...It has been quite a while since I sat down in a cafe and chatted till morning.Upon reaching home,I recieved a message from Martin telling me he felt like vommiting.He had Car sickness.And he didn't mention this to me before.His bike was at the workshop,and his friend is actually senting him home with his bike.But he came down to look for me.Knowing that He would feel unwell after taking the taxi home.He still came.I shouldn't had asked him if he wanted to join us.I felt so gulity.He vomitted 3 times.Then develop to a headache."I am sorry..."When I was in Bangkok,he was the only one messaging me once he woke upand before he slept.Really sweet of him.For all the efforts made.This to you:"There is nothing to hide from ,everyone had their weakness,I had my sensitive skin,Wendy had her fragile stomach.And you had yours.It's all these little details that made each of us so special.In our own special ways.I still have to tell you I am sorry...But I am really touched that you came.Never regret knowing you.A star in my friendship list."
ends at 10:29 AMwith love ♥
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*Day 3****This time ,I am prepare for the battle...Shopping Battle!Wore shorts.Took my big shopping bag.Apply sun block,I didn't even bother to put on my make up!!!Chatuchak here I come!!!
Ended up,I thought yesterday,my bag was heavy...but this time,it's much heavier.But Me and Wendy bargin like crazy.Much more tactful then yesterday.But summary,I ended up buying more t-shirts more then anything else .And nearly spent half of my shopping money as gifts for friends and Family...I suddenly felt so sorry for myself.Should had buy less for them...spent more on myself*laugh*Went back to the Hotel,Changed to my bikini,went to the hotel swimming pool.I regretted...Think the swimming pool water,is dirty cause once i came out from the water,I developed rashes.*I have sensitive skin la,and ants can't come near me,cause once an ant bit me,I have to be admitted to the hospital.For an injection or else...I will die.No kidding...*I have very sensitive skin!!!*fragile*Then went to the near by Thai restaurant for dinner.The Pineapple fried rice.Was delicious...We went Clubbing after that.Noticed that the guys there were actually quite handsome.Went to a club call 'Slim'.It was similar to zouk.One side is having trance and another playing R&b.Just like...Zouk and Phuture.We were having great fun!!!I kept dancing and dancing.I am so tired by the end of the day.With the heavy bag,with the swimming and the dancing...So now...it's sleeping time!!!
My hotel room.*Day 4****Went shopping at Marboonkong,Bought lots of different kinds of tibits...Didn't really bought much from there,as the stuffs there can't really bargin.We took the tuk tuk car back as there was a jam.The driver actually wanted 200bth.But I only be willing to pay till 100 bth.And nothing more.The driver agreed.We hoped in the car.And Wendy was holding on to her dear life.The driver was a dare devil.Cutting through one -way roads,going thought small lanes,speeding ...all those n0-nos in Singapore.But the the road in Bangkok was quite bumpy.So we were like jumping up and down ,from the seats.*painful*But it did saved us lots of time...Wendy swore she would never take the car again.But i Wanted to try again if i had the chance.Reach the hotel...Packed my luggages.And fell asleep.Actually wanted to go to the night market.But didn't in the end as we were all so tired,And wendy only wanted to go clubbing.I just wanted shopping.So ...We slept...
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Hi Hi*wave*I am back!!!Finally,Miss Singapore so much...Miss hearing english songs ,Miss talking without comunication breakdown,Miss My computer ...I brought my diary there,so I am going to transfer It here...*On my way to Bangkok****Picked up Wendy ,then proceed to the airport.We met up with Wendy's friend Pam and her family.We will be meeting Pam's elder sis, and her girlfriend.
Pam...Me...Wendy
Pam and me...
Pam's Mom and Dad...
I didn't know what air line I would be taking till check in time.We are taking a budget air line...Thai Air Asia.It's actually quite a small plane.The air stewardess,don't even look pretty at all.They dress in red jacket and red skirt.Budget airflight...Budget outlook...*laugh*By the time we reached Bangkok,It's already around 5:30pm.Went over to our hotel.It was also until last min,I finally realise what hotel I am staying*blur*.Royal park view hotel.It's a 'no no'*shake head*hotel.Then we proceed to Big sea shopping centre to have our dinner,Then went to a huge supermarket...'something like Carrefour.'I didn't manage to get anything,but my dear Wendy got herself a tv rack!!!Who will buy tv rack all the way from Bangkok to Singapore?*insane*Oops forgot to mention that,Pam's elder sis (Naomi) knows thai as her girlfriend is a thai(Aae).But they had been staying in Uk for a period of time.So it was meeting in Bangkok their "reunion".Did visit the '4 face buddha' temple.then head back to the hotel,for a back massage.The massage wasn't that good like what I expected.But it's cheap anyway...Still have to wake up early tml.Nites...*Day2****Woke up early in the morning to get prepare to go to the weekend market,'Chatuchak.'Breakfast in the hotel *yucks*Pam's mom and me...
*Kiss me*
Chatuchak was another version of heaven to me.Shopping was all i cared about.'Shopped till you drop'.The weather was so hot ...lucky, Me and Wendy brought our survial kit with us.'The battery operated mini fan.'
I was so sweaty ,that I look as if i just taken shower with a bucket of sweat!
And the bad news was ,I forgotten to apply my sun block lotion...
My hands were so full with the things that i bought that,I decided to buy a big bag to put all my shopping items in it.
By the end of the day,My back is aching due to the heavy shopping bag.And the sad news was ,I only covered 1 section of Chatuchak.
'I will be back...'
Wendy was complaining about their service...
If in singapore....
"Singapore starts with a S,
and the S stands for service.
Bangkok starts with a B,
and the B stands for Bo chap,Bo hue then...
when we in their country,we become Bo bian."*wink*
Didn't dare to eat the roadside hawker stalls as Wendy had a sensitive stomach.
So she sujested a Japanese restaurant.
The food sucks to the max.
Had to wait damn long and more over the rice is cold.
And the total meal ended up to be damn ex...
Oh ya...I invented another short form,
'C&S'
Stands for...."C=curse AND S=swear..."*laugh*
ends at 12:20 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, June 10, 2005♥
I am leaving in a few hours time.This would be my last goodbye.*wave*A special thanks to ...Chelz...andMartin(Hammer)*He started to like me calling him that.*For making 22 miss calls .(To wake me up.)Slept at 8 am .Only 3hours of sleep,and I haven't even packed my stuffs.I had to go now.There's no one,here that i couldn't leave behind,except for my family.so i guess theres no special goodbye...PLease pray that I do have fun.I love you all.Bye...*wave******** My will ****Ps....If anything happens to me,just help me tell my Mom I love her.She was the only one standing by me through all.And the one who dote me the most.And I love her so much.I love you Mommy...*
ends at 11:00 AMwith love ♥
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Later...I am leaving,but I ain't happy.Like what I thought I will be.Something is bothering me.And I'm thinking...Wendy's is also upset.Both of us...*trouble*In life,there are certain choices to be made.Unwilling choices....*sign*Somethings that were meant to be forgotten yet couldn't be forget.To Wendy,"Buddy...I know nothing I could say or do to make things right.Remember what you ask me today?You knew I am still thinking of him,even when I didn't mention any thing to you.You knew how I felt.You knew what I hoped for...But I knew things will never work out.That's why I chose to give up.It wasn't easy ,buddy...turning my back on him.That's why I couldn't accept anyone right now...But i am still trying my best.I am still telling myself, time will make all these misery disappear.You helped me when I am down.And now it's my turn...and I just wanna be there for you...I love you buddy...And I do hope you will walk out from his misery soon."Let's hope this trip will do us good...
ends at 7:11 AMwith love ♥
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