♥Saturday, April 30, 2005♥
Yes...You were right ...I didn't open my door.Not to you...and not to anyone else...There are times when i still feel the pain.The pain for loving...It was me all along,If i still wouldn't open the door,guess,i won't never find the courage to open it at all...The person ,i had to overcome all this while, was myself.I'm too 'into' the past relationships i had.Kept bothering in the past,I had to move on.I want to breathe again...And ,For Now...i shall open, yes...Open the door to my heart.To love and fall in love again.I am back.Back in the dating world...And I am looking for 'the someone'...Could 'the someone' be you?
ends at 7:39 PM
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Went to a new cafe with Wendy,A very nice place to be ...To chill out.Wendy's com crashed again!!!
*sweet smiling*Wendy wore the design i did for her...
Vogue...Changed my music ...Find this quite romantic...Suits my mood now...*laughing*(actually having a terrible headache.And jazz is what i need to hear.To relax...)For those who don't know...I loves jazz...If only there's someone who will ask me for a dance...*daydreaming**smiles*
ends at 2:53 PMwith love ♥
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Cancer - Your Love ProfileYour positive traits:
You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on
A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows
You are a generous and devoted parter to whoever you fall in love with
Your negative traits:
Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner
You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult
It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.
Your ideal partner:
Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply
Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family
Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!
Your dating style:
Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.
Your seduction style:
Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.
Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.
Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.
Tips for the future:
Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.
Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.
Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.
Best place to meet someone online:
eHarmony - you'll be able to take the time to get to know each potential match well
Best color to attract mate: Aqua
Best day for a date: Wednesday
Get your free love profile at Blogthings.
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ends at 2:46 AMwith love ♥
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Had a nightmare...
broke up in sweat.
It was 'Kiong'...
I didn't get over the fear,
i am frigthen...
Prayers i made,
to forget...
"If there's ever a dream catcher..."
(You taught me how to dream,you taught me how to love,and now...you taught me how to hate.)
ends at 1:35 AMwith love ♥
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| Your Japanese Name Is... |
Mine Inoue |
ends at 1:00 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, April 29, 2005♥
My buddy...Wendy...
She's my snow girl...*Muacks*
ends at 11:00 AMwith love ♥
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Memories of the past haunts,
Thought it was over, but it wasn't.
For your soul, had never left ..
You were here...
Here in my heart.
Promises of an entire life of happiness and joy
Hurt i felt from believing your lies.
Changed me and then torn me part.
i am not what i used to be,
What does that meant to you?
Who am i to you?
For i hate myself for loving you...
ends at 7:48 AMwith love ♥
♥Thursday, April 28, 2005♥
Our Mr Cute Cute Jay...
And his Mmm...Body...*wink*
ends at 7:30 PMwith love ♥
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Only had one word to discribe phuture tonight...'Happening'...Jay was at zouk,still the same as cute as ever.So ...no need to say,next wednesday,It would be phuture again...I felt that ,someone is watching me...Watching what i am doing ...reading my daily blog...Is it my fans?My admirer?Or a stalker?Really childish to had behaved this way.And by arguing back would only make me childish too.I won't get mad with you...But...i am laughing at you.I do have one advise though,"Grow up and learn to behave like a normal human being and stop making afool of yourself."'I started a joke ,and made the whole world laughing...but i didn't see...thats the joke was on me.'(This was extracted from an oldies)
ends at 7:14 PMwith love ♥
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Not to forget.Today is Wednesday,And wednesday is Ladies night!Don't know if i willing be going clubbing yet.Mmm...
Dance ...Dance...Dance...
ends at 5:09 AMwith love ♥
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Reached home at 4 am yesterday,Finished Formatting Wendy's com."Now, can read chinese liao,can burn song liao...Happy liao la!!!"The power of love is incredible...Can let one person turn 'ku ku'With dazzle in her eyes...Snowman this...snowman that...Wendy also started a new hobby,video editing/cum stalker...Think i should be going phuture much often ...*wink**wink*Gary was very helpful yesterday...*Thanks*Going through step by step ,when i am having set up problems .'It's so cute to see you blush and you were so shy,didn't even dare to look in my eyes...'This msg was sent by Andy.After he dropped by my shop just to say hi...Actually needed help with my internet connections,But...Ended up getting Pretty upset with d_link tech service.So i toss my d_link out and brought in Linksys...Mmm...Much better...
ends at 1:23 AMwith love ♥
♥Wednesday, April 27, 2005♥
ends at 6:49 AMwith love ♥
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Wendy just called me,"you know what?""my com has crashed...""it's the web site that you gave me..."Well...I gave her the web site to download mucic codes for her blog.Oops...
Guess...It's my fault...*smile*So...going to her house to reformat the com for her.But on one condition...She promises to tell me the full details,of she and her mr snowman...They went Dating today...*cheeky*Ask me want to join them anot...'Madness...'I don't want to be a lightblub...I maybe a bitch,but i am a understanding bitch,ok!!!Still considering whether going to work anot...Mmm...
ends at 6:15 AMwith love ♥
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Finally....Having some connection problems ,with the new wireless ...Been trying to excess since last night!"Andy,i truely agreed now!"Shouldn't have let those unnecessary problems buged me so much.Just relax and goes with the flow.What will comes will come,What will go will go...Will there be a time when ,you would wonder who you really are and what you really wanted out of your life?Frankly speaking ,till now,i don't seems to understand myself either.There are the serious me...the crazy me...the blur me...the smart me...the stupid me...It's all those 'me' that adds up to one big me.But still,there are a few things , i decided to make some amendments .Self-improvement i guess...My motto:To be happy ... And carefree...
ends at 4:40 AMwith love ♥
♥Tuesday, April 26, 2005♥
ends at 7:00 AMwith love ♥
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Didn't slept late yesterday...Slept at 10 am in the morning!!!Consider early?Doing my com and stuff...Vex to the max....Woke up,first thing .get my mask done...What can i say?I just too vain.Later still had to get my wireless card.Poor me.Finally Taken the day off,still have go out.I just wanna laz around...Haiz...
ends at 6:13 AMwith love ♥
♥Sunday, April 24, 2005♥
Busy at work today.Kept designing...upon customer orders.Didn't even have time to visit the ladies.And now...my neck hurts.Drew 'nemo' on a hat (The customer's son likes nemo...)My speciality wasn't cartoons' character but,i wanted to take up this challenge...moreover she's a regular...It won't hurt to learn something new...She wanted me to design 3 more tops for her.Really felt good when someone could appreciate my 'work of art'.I am a poor designer...I ain't making big money.But you can count on seeing my very best on each and every piece of my designs.If you want to do,do with the best.At least i knew i tried...
Met up with Youri,Looking good today...*smile*"Thanks Colin,for turning my com to another perfect..."
ends at 8:50 PMwith love ♥
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This is just one of my designs...
ends at 8:00 PMwith love ♥
♥Saturday, April 23, 2005♥
Looking for a friend of mine,trying to find some peace of mind.Happiness is hard to findSee i've been looking for love in all the wrong facesHanging around in too many places.When will i come home?Cloudy and murky is my visionWon't you help me turn my corner?'Cause i'm in the lost and foundStand up and show me you'll deliverCould you help me clear my conscience?
ends at 8:25 PMwith love ♥
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Sang with Bicent at his birthday party,he looked right in my eyes...Showing the emotional expressions...I didn't dare to look,i turned away.He seems so different from the past.He was scalded after a 4 years relationship ended.It really torn him apart.And he chose to turn from a "mr nice"to a "mr not so nice"."If a nice guy would be the one ending up hurt ...it's much easlier to be the bad guy then.' At times,we were force to make changes or a decision that it wasn't the way we intented. 'This is what we proclaim,as 'the dark side of life."Went Devils bar after that, Well..the place was packed with people...waiting for their turns to enter the club.*Lucky me* Andy came down and brought me up from another staircase with the management permission!I don't have to wait at all!!!Found out that Andy knew alot of my old time friends...Mmm...Bird of the same kind flock together...*hee...*Keep teasing me but in a nice way.Youri was there too...He was a little tipsy when i saw him.Lucky he didn't drive today ...'No drink and drive'He wanted to head home early ,but waited for me ...as he wanted to sent me home...Saw alot of old friends that i lost in contact with...One of them was 'Ah bao'.I was dancing when his hand touches my face.He was still the o'l bao i knew."Are you on drugs""of course not...""Then why you slim down so much?""Stress"i answered...He did ask for my number though.Looking at the people there,i realise i was way back behind time...I need to update ,myself.I decided to....Club much more often...*hee...*Bicent later came up to Devils also.He found me,then dance so close in front of me,that i had to push him away several times.*lucky* Youri came over and saved me.Then we left the club...we took a cab ...senting me home.In the cab...Youri...
*hee*....(i shall not let you all know the details now...)Heart itchy itchy??*haha...*Oops...forgotten ...I decided to take a break and relax...So i bought an air ticket to Bangkok already.'Shop till u drop' is my motto...I bring a empty bag go and make sure it'll be full when i'm back...To me...That's what holiday is about...
ends at 8:13 AMwith love ♥
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LET"S MAKE A DEAL:You forgive me for liking you too much,And I'll forgive you for not liking me enough.
You forgive me for missing you so,And I'll forgive you for being so cold.
You forgive me for the loud racing of my heart,And I'll forgive you for not hearing it.
You forgive me for playing your games,And I'll forgive you for toying with my emotions.
You forgive me for finding you so attractive,And I'll forgive you for not noticing.
You forgive me for raising you up so high,And I'll forgive you for bringing me down so low.
You forgive me for wanting to be with you,And I'll forgive you for avoiding me.
You forgive me for being so pathetic,And I'll forgive you for taking advantage of it.
You forgive me for not being able to let go,And I'll forgive you for never having latched on.You forgive me for having hopes and dreams,And I'll forgive you for crushing them.Forgiveness brings inner peace.Do we have a deal? (Diane Blue)
ends at 12:03 AMwith love ♥
♥Friday, April 22, 2005♥
Am i a somebody?
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